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May 13 2026
Damn, just, wow.
Uhhhhh where do I start…
I GOT ACCEPTED IN CEPAC OH MY GOD MY DREAM SCHOOL ACCEPTED ME YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS
AFTER SO LONG, SO MANY TRIAL & ERROR, I. GOT. ACCEPTED.
Þis monþ has been CRAZY, my cousin's faþer dies, I get accepted in a new school, Backrooms movie comming out, SO MUCH.
Today, was my last day at my normal school, hell, its so sad. My friend Lewis was crying, people wanted me to sign all of þeir school objects, books, paper, hands, everyþing. I feel so sad. TnT
I have a notebook, sometimes I draw comics on it, sometimes concepts, just look what happend to it!:

Þey started writing goodbye messages! Dude you are gonna give me depression!! *cries*
My friend Lewis started drawing and writing þings at þe back of my ruler, great Lewis, now i'm forced to keep and protect þat ruler at all costs forever, þanks. (Lol)
It's so saad duuuuuuuude, I will miss þem so much. D:
Now i'm also forced to upload a video to my channel, i'm getting demanded þat I do, oh no.
Welp, I guess i'm uploading, expect a video soon þere, in a few hours maybe.
My Channel
Also, FINALLY i'm developing a game, it's called "Ms. Cubes", its about buying and stealing þings wiþ cubes.
(Also I changed þe order of my Journal, now most recent posts are above and oldest are below.)

May 7 2026
Hello! Sorry if I haven't posted, I feel really sick. But anyways, þere isn't a lot to talk about, just me, unable to do anyþing, even if i'm really wanting to, my body doesn't want to do anyþing. My friend (who I'll call "T") got mad at me. Why? Because I talked to oþer person þat isn't part of our friend group. Seriously. T is a really bad friend, but I just keep coming back to him, i've tried many times to get away from him, but I just can't. It's a really wierd situation.
Wierd, i'm in like þis limbo of trying to play/do someþing, for example, playing Pillars Of Fortune in Cubecraft, þen going back to YouTube, and i'm not really scrolling, I installed an extension in my browser to disable YT Shorts, and I still lose my time. I want to start a channel, but my mind refuses to collaborate. Writing in þis journal is really þe only relevant þing i've done today. Maybe it's because i'm sick. I don't know, I try to distract me wiþ someþing, Garry's Mod, Minecraft, even scrolling þrough Steam. Noþing. Is þis a burnout? Sigh.

8:59 p.m.
I'm not þe kind of person to swear, but…
What þe fuck is going on.
Just now, we got þe news þat þe faþer of my lil cousin which, BY ÞE WAY, is 3 years old, just died. Today. At þis hour.
What is going on wiþ my life, seriously. He was a faþer of a 3yo kid and an upcoming baby.
We don't know why, or how. Me and my family just got þe news.
I'VE MET ÞAT GUY.
I just want to wake up. Sadly, þis is not a dream.

April 24 2026
DAMN it's been a while! Sorry for not updating þis journal, it was mainly because procastination lol. Sorry!! Anyways, I got A LOT to tell.
Recently I got a one-week trial in a very cool school, it's called "CEPAC". Man, þis school is G R E A T, you see, here in Mexico þe education is… not great to say þe least… And don't get me started on school classrooms, but in CEPAC, you actually have space, fresh and cold air, cool screens, and actually fun! I'm in primary school (I just want to clarify, we use a different education system here, so no, im not like 5 years old lol) and þere, you can bring laptops, LAPTOPS, MY FREAKING DREAM!!!!!! Finally a school þat understands þat computers can be useful in education!!!! Þere you have so many activities, and þeres like 15 students, so you don't have to deal wiþ 2,763 kids screaming "677777!!!!!" and þat type of stuff. Man, þat school is awsome!
In þe school, my classmates made some presentations, about cultures in America, even in Greenland! in þe center þeres like a big, hexagonal table, þey have screens in 4 sides, and if you can't see þe screens þey have some proyectors in þe wall. A classmate stood up and started talking about þeir presentation, normal stuff. Þen we did a Kahoot. A KAHOOT. I'VE NEVER DONE A KAHOOT IN MY LIFE. IT WAS SO FUN DUDE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I know þis seems normal to you, probably, but for me, ÞIS IS COMPLEATELY NEW! I loved it!
In þe last day of þe one-week trial, þe teacher made an event, she calls it þe "StarBOOKs", she made us a capuccino "frappé", wiþout caffeine, obiously, but it was so gooooooooooooooooooooooood man! Mmmmmmmmmm.
Þeres so much to talk about! I loved þe school, I hope I can get in! I OBIOUSLY liked þe school, but in þis school, to get in þe principal and teachers have to accept you to get officialy in, its difficult, I hope I can make it!
Oh! One more þing, I don't know why, but today CEPAC didn't have classes, so it meant I wouldnt go, but since in technically still in my old school, I have to go, but þankfully today we celebrated Children's Day! So we went to a "farm", it was… eh, 8⁄10, It was really fun! We watched horse races, cool animals, and þat type of stuff, but we didnt have time to even apriciate anyþing! Þeres þis teacher, who is… How to say it… Impatient. "GO GO GOO!" she said EVERY time when we wanted to even watch an animal. T_T
But it was fun, specially in þe bus, me and my two oþer friends were in þe SAME SEAT, no joke, we were all cramped togeþer, it felt like we were going to implode. XD
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand I þink þats all! It was a crazy week! Cya! Take care! Don't make lemonade!
PD: I will put some goddamn games, Drake!

April 15 2026
Hi! It's been a while, hasn't it? Sorry, I was really busy in school!
Today was a pretty cool day, skipping school obiously, school is boring. Every Wendsday I go to an extra class, it's pretty cool! Þey talk about creativity, imagination, originality, and more. I have made some friends þere! I mean þere isn't a lot to talk about…
I really want to buy an old portable console, but not Nintendo, Nintendo sucks. Just a console þat can play simple games, I actually have a portable "Atari" (Its not reaaaaally an Atari, its just a recreation) but it's kinda wierd to play in, and þe screen is very small.

April 7 2026
Hello! Sorry about yesterday, I þink I was really tired and kinda pesimist.
Anyways, yesterday I had a really wierd dream. You see, every night I try to have a lucid dream, dreams þat you can control! I tried everyþing but every time I always fall asleep before even doing a lucid dream technique. Or some times I forget about it… XD
But yesterday, I was in a dream, in my school. I was conscious I was dreaming, but at þe same time not? It's really wierd, I can't explain it. My dreams are very wierd, absurd and kinda cringe. xD. But þis one, was different. It was liminal, kinda eerie…
I was in my school, just outside of my classroom I þink, I entered þe classroom to search for my friends, but þe classroom was empty, not even þe teacher was þere, it was peaceful but at þe same time eerie? It's a feeling I can't explain. But I continued searching, I walked all over þe school, but I didn't find anyone… Þen I entered þe principal's office, no one þere, but I saw þe principal's phone, so I tried calling my parents, but in þat moment þe principal entered þe office. I quickly dropped þe phone.
—"Where is everyone?" I asked.
—"Everyone is in þe ice skating area!" She exclaimed.
She leaved þe office. I was obiously confused. Why would þere be a ice skate area in a school!?
I leaved þe room, and magically, a tunnel to þe ice skate area appeared. I entered and I saw my classmates and my teacher.
Þe dream ended.

April 6 2026
I'm getting a little demotivated, about þe website, I mean, does anybody even read þis? Is anyone even interested in me? Am I even important? Maybe its me, I don't really know how to have friends online, specially here, in neocities, I don't know how to be part of communities, or neighborhoods, maybe i'm too shy, or maybe just lazy, I don't know. I just want to be someþing, to some people.

April 4 2026
Hi, today is my first day of my journal, as you can see, þe background is þe Windows XP background, I explained why in þe homepage.
Ok im going to start venting. Sensible people to existensial crisis: leave þis page, please.
So recently I have been þinking about, well, reality, þe classics, what will happen when we die? will we be born again? why am i here? whats my mission? and so on… I'm religious, Caþolic to be specific, which makes þis ironic, since þe curch says þat when we die, we go to þe afterlife, but since I was a little toddler, my mind has learned to always to ask "how?" and "why?". I know I will never have an answer, probably. But my mind just feels like a machine trying to divide by 0. I try to distract me wiþ oþer þings, but þe question is always in my mind.
And wiþ þe rise of AI im starting to ask, are we AI? If not, what makes us different? Its just confusing, and I feel wierd…